Saturday, July 22, 2006


So I was initally told I would be a Project Coordinator for Countrywide in their training department. Yeah.. my recruiter dropped the ball on that one. So instead of training, I am now working in the Human Resources Department for their Wholesale Division.

I am so bored. Seriously.. SO bored. It's a lot of busy work that can be time consuming and draining, but I am sooo not challenged. I had no idea this is what it would be like working in an office environment m-f 8-5. Don't get me wrong though, I LOVE my schedule. After a few years, getting up at 3:30 am only to return home after 10pm or so got really annoying, but work at the Bean was at least somewhat mind-stimulating. There's something to be said when you're placed in a position where decisions are made because you said so. It's nice. The environment is the way it is because YOU made it that way. If things are messed up, you fix it, because it's your responsibility. If things are good, you AND your team made it that way. I miss the training. I miss facilitating classes. I miss going through walkthroughs with the construction team and telling them they needed to fix a cabinet because it wasn't done to my standards. I miss the bakery case Nazis. I miss having water fights in the back rooms with my kids and telling them they need to clean up when we're done. I miss having the kids come to me and ask advice on life and actually listening to me. I miss going to lunch with my kids and telling them it was okay if we were gone for 1 1/2 hours and that the staff would be fine without us. I miss seeing my team grow from "how do I do this?" to "it's okay.. I got this one.". I miss the ever-changing environment. I miss the comfort of knowing certain kids would always be there with me on the days I needed extra help.

Yeah.. I don't really get any of that working in Human Resources.

On the other hand however, I know I get to go home when the clock says 5:00pm. I know I don't have to work on Saturdays and Sundays. I know I don't have to drive to Beverly Hills to teach a class because the facilitator that day called in sick. I know I don't have to deal with DMs who hate women in management positions.

It's a huge give and take when it comes to work. Hopefully in time, things will change for me at Countrywide and I'll start seeing things in a different light.

Wish me luck.